लहरें

searing hot pain
gushing through my veins
why cant i understand
why cant i hear the voices banging my ears
why cant i see through my misty eyes
why cant i just kick myself out of this mess of my life

goddamn i want a life

i want some sunshine
a bit of piano sounds
a small cup of sweet coffe
and an easel to paint
some fresh air
some more pain
that makes me feel i am alive

i want some more pain to feel i am alive
there is a vaccum and i dont know what do i fill it from